What has been happening to me as I write this blog, I have things I want to say about stuff that happened today when I was running some training. I found myself starting to write then I stopped and deleted everything, then started again, deleted and then decided to write about my process.
How do I feel right now?
Bloody frustrated! I just want to blog about what I observed and what happened. So I am thinking of away of writing about what I want to explain., so here goes.
See I started and deleted so what's that about! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! feeling even more frustrated now. Whats stopping me? confidentiality? maybe that's what it is. Maybe I need to own this then write.
I have seen some reactions today that has highlighted how skilled I am at dealing with people's issues. I have seen people (none counsellors) react to self harm, suicide and rape that really surprised me. I guess I was surprised as I deal with these issues on a day to day basis's and those issues don't surprise me, when someone tells me they are self harming etc.
I don't want to blow my own trumpet, I think it just comes from the training I have done and the experience I have gained over the past 7 years.
Again I have been typing and deleting. Time to close this entry.
I quess we all have different skills in the work place and they have skills that I don't have and I have skills that they don't have. So its not a reflection on the people, its a reflection on the training they have had. So I hope that the training they had today helped them gain a few more skills on how to deal with people.
More process! I have read and reread this enty for reasons I'm not sure about at this time. I have even changed and retyped parts of it and that something I dont do as I tent to write then publish....this has been a bizar procces for me.
If any one want to throw some light on my process please do....!
Appreciated reading your post. Probably the main thing is the confidentiality that is holding you back some. As you know there are "Code of Ethics,' in the counseling realm. But, then if it was "your process" that you were trying to write, w/o mentioning other names and such, I see no reason to share. I know you want to share more deeply, as probably you felt what you shared was just surface, because you did not want to risk sharing more in-depth. Hey, who am I to pick-up on this. I may be Totally wrong.
ReplyDeleteStill, appreciate your sharing your struggle.